Where Would I be Now?

[nolisan]

Just passed 10 months NC on the 7th.

One big reason for things unraveling was that a balked at her manipulation that I sell my house, buy hers and move in with her. I can't believe it now but I was actually thinking seriously of doing that.

But I had a dream (more like a nightmare) that I had followed her wishes and made the move and then she abandoned me anyway. I was stuck with crappy little house I didn't like and she was gone. The next morning I wrote her a note saying I wasn't doing it. We bounced around for another month or so but that was basically the end.

That dream saved my life. I'm still recovering emotionally and financially but I am recovering ... . not digging a deeper hole.