Contacted a family member again for help, but being ignored

[MatzlanGirl]

I just can't understand my family! I have been trying to reach out to them and ask for their help, but am just being ignored. I've been trying for 2 years, ever since I realized that I was tricked, lied to and conned, and that I did a stupid thing--was foolish enough to believe his lies, gave him another chance, gave up a nice apartment AND quit my job, just to come back home to him---oh the con job he did on me to talk me into coming back home, and I fell for it! I just don't understand my family--why they won't help me, and I am very very hurt and disappointed in them, that they seem to have turned a blind eye and a cold shoulder, and don't seem to care! God, it makes me so mad, cuz its not like I am asking for help forever, I don't like being dependent on other people, cuz I've always been independent and self-sufficient, so my goal and #1 priority would be to move into my own place asap. The last time, and the ONLY time I ever asked them for help, gee, I stayed with a sister a whole "3 weeks," then was moving into my own place... . in less than ONE month, so, how's that for motivation and determination? But yet, I keep asking for their help and get no reply at all, get totally ignored! So, I guess I just don't understand them at all--turning their backs on me. I've made up my mind now that obviously my own family, (if you want to call them that--I don't anymore), just don't care! I also want to mention something that I've not ever mentioned on here before. My family also is aware that I am dying slowly of lung disease, but obviously don't care. I was diagnosed a few years ago. My BPD husband knows about it too, and has tried to hide it and keep it a secret from everyone, including his own family, I recently discovered. (And I just assumed all that time that they knew--that he told 'em, but he didn't). I believe the reason he doesn't want anyone to know about it is so that he can keep getting the sympathy and attention he craves from telling his lies and stories about me behind my back, and convincing everyone that I am this awful witch, and getting his "you poor, poor thing, oh we feel so sorry for you" pats on the head! All I want is to get a little peace and happiness back in my life, to not have to go thru this crap with him anymore, and to get a job and be a productive, working, contributing member of society again, at least for a few more years... . while I am still able to do it!