Paid a locksmith today to unlock our bedroom so I could get my clothes

[The Mrs]

I really find it infuriating and frightening when I find myself acting just as crazy as he is!  Left husband of 25 years 2  1/2 months ago.  He doesn't know where I'm living. I preplanned and took as much as I could but the place I am renting is really, really small.  Shortly after I left, hub put an exterior lock on our bedroom door.  Said he needed his privacy, too, given that he didnt know where I was living or what I was doing (I'm trying to create a peaceful, safe and calm existence free of the ongoing threat of nightly rants and rages that can go on for hours).  I have been coming and going to our house to try and maintain our business dealings.  Some days I am given access, some days I am not.

So, when I was informed last night that he was going hunting for 1 to 8 days and that he had also put a lock on our home office door and that I didn't need access, I had heard enough.  He said 2 1/2 months away was too long and I needed to figure things out and come home before it became a situation  where I couldn't come home. 

He was belligerently texting until midnight and then began again at 4. When he stopped at 5 I knew he had left.  I went to the house and began packing up additional stuff.  Our oldest daughter, technically my stepdaughter but I've raised her since she was 6, came over and called the locksmith.  She made 2 trips to my little place with random stuff... .recipe books, crockpot, snow boots, plastic ware, extra paper goods, etc.  the locksmith arrived and within minutes and $40. Later I had access... .access to my own bedroom and bathroom to my own stuff.  At first I didn't know if I should just take some of it but then I just took ALL of it.  I even replaced the Kcup machine that my brother bought me with another lesser one.  And then I locked the door behind me, setbthebhouse alarm and left. 

My little place looks like a scene out of hoarders! 

[HarmKrakow]

It's sad that you have to live under circumstances like this, constant feeling of being aware. It must wear you out at some point. Please keep battling!

[Khenkis]

Wow! My heart goes out to you. I will definitely pray for you. Hang in there! 

[The Mrs]

Thank you, it's been an emotional few days since "the great closet caper".  I'm still not done sorting thru everything.  It was such a mad dash, we were literally stuffing things in garbage bags and throwing things in our cars.  We weren't sure when he would return because he had  told everyone a different story.  It's hard to believe it has come to this.  I've been quite strong and determined through all this but for whatever reason I'm recently starting to wonder if ill ever feel safe and protected again.  This is just all so sad.  So many people are affected here, we have 3 kids and 2 grand kids and another coming in January and extended family who have all moved nearby us.  Now, it has all imploded and my husband continues to blame everybody but himself.

[Surnia]

The Mrs,

wow, this is tough, I feel with you. 

We are here for you.