It has been six months since my uBPD ex last tried to re-engage with me, asking me inappropriate personal questions etc. I ignored him and have been continuing to enjoy a new life of peace and calm. The man I once loved turned deadly toxic and I could never interact with him again.
Anyhow today I find out completely by accident that my replacement/his supposed "mad" ex is seven months pregnant. So how do I feel about it?
First I thought, oh ok, and felt indifferent and unsurprised.
Second I thought, oh I wonder if this will make it more likely that I will never ever hear or see him again? That would be great! I would love that to be definitively the case.
Third I thought, poor girl, she's much braver than me. The man made me sick with stress and painted me night black. Poor girl!
Fourth I thought, well maybe this means he has/they have turned a corner. Good for them if they have... .providing I still never hear from him again.
Five I thought, this might be good for him, and good for his BPD. That would be a nice outcome. Good luck to him.
Six I thought, ok too much thought expended on his account
I thought I would share this, as I am still learning everyday from my encounter with BPD, but I wanted to share that there is life afterwards. I want nothing to do with the man, because I got so hurt and almost destroyed by my involvement with him. But good luck to him. Good luck to everyone. I guess I have turned a corner.
I love my BPD-free life, it is so calm and simple and reasonable and comfortable. I feel I appreciate and value those things much more now
