Hurting

[Grissum69]

Well it's Christmas ,

I didn't want to come here but I have nowhere else to vent.   I know others out there are in a far more worse place than I am right now, I'm really hurting right now.   I miss her really badly, I was hoping for a small sign like a merry Christmas , anything from her but no avail.  I went to visit my family today and it wasn't so pleasant, my Dad isn't doing so well he was diagnosed with dementia earlier this year.   :'(    I have a song I listen to think of her "come wake me up" , made the mistake of listening to that CD today and have been on a downward spiral since  :'(.    I just feel numb, don't want to deal anything right now just sit in silence and hope that what's going around me is not real, wake from it all as if nothing really happend or not wake up at all.    :'(     

I feel as if my soul has been sucked out of me, the real me is gone and I don't where to find it anymore.  Darkness has fallen upon me, the light has gone and with it me , myself and  I

[Surnia]

Hi Greengiant

I am so sorry to hear about your pain! And also about your fathers diagnose. 

Sending you some light in the darkness. Or a good sleep to overcome this moment.

We are here for you.