New Year, New ME

[Mara2]

The year 2013 was a horrible one for me.  I will not let that happen in 2014.  It is a new start for me and I intend to make it a good one.

First of all I filed a restraining order against my BPD/PTSD/Bi-Polar H and I do not intend to drop it even if he starts doing better.  I am job seeking and getting my finances seperated from his so I can take care of myself.  I have friends and a super forum that support me and give me encouragement every step.  My children are now at peace with the turmoil gone and are beginning to thrive.  We disconnected the TV and spend our time making things, reading, or playing games.  I am making choices for me instead of for him.

After being homeless for  a couple weeks my H finally checked himself into the mental health crisis house.  I hope to talk to his counselor today about long term options and I hope he will get the help that he needs.  He is manic and delusional at the moment.  He will not be coming back here to create chaos any more. 

He is still telling everyone that everything bad that is happening to him is all my fault.  I think I'll engrave that on my tombstone I've heard it so often.  He alternates between saying he will do whatever I want him to do so we can get back together and he is filing for a divorce.  I say do whatever you want to do- you are not coming back here to create chaos any more. 

So 2014 is a new year, a new beginning and a new ME.   

[Perfidy]

Happy new year Mara! 

[Mara2]

Thanks, Perfidy.  I'm hoping for a good year for you too. 

[willtimeheal]

Bravo!  I hope 2014 is everything you hope for and more!

[karma_gal]

The year 2013 was a horrible one for me.  I will not let that happen in 2014.  It is a new start for me and I intend to make it a good one.

First of all I filed a restraining order against my BPD/PTSD/Bi-Polar H and I do not intend to drop it even if he starts doing better.  I am job seeking and getting my finances seperated from his so I can take care of myself.  I have friends and a super forum that support me and give me encouragement every step.  My children are now at peace with the turmoil gone and are beginning to thrive.  We disconnected the TV and spend our time making things, reading, or playing games.  I am making choices for me instead of for him.

After being homeless for  a couple weeks my H finally checked himself into the mental health crisis house.  I hope to talk to his counselor today about long term options and I hope he will get the help that he needs.  He is manic and delusional at the moment.  He will not be coming back here to create chaos any more. 

He is still telling everyone that everything bad that is happening to him is all my fault.  I think I'll engrave that on my tombstone I've heard it so often.  He alternates between saying he will do whatever I want him to do so we can get back together and he is filing for a divorce.  I say do whatever you want to do- you are not coming back here to create chaos any more. 

So 2014 is a new year, a new beginning and a new ME.   

Good for you, and good for your children.  You are now in the position that so many of us are seeking to be in, and reading your story is empowering, letting us all know it CAN be done.  I can't wait to read more about the awesome things that happen for you and the kids as this year unfolds.  You've taken the first, and hardest step.  There will probably be bumps in the road here and there, but you are on your way to an wonderful new life! 

When I read the bold part of your post, I laughed harder than I've laughed in a long time.  I, along with so many others, have heard that at least a million times.  It's the most well-used phrase from the BPD playbook, I think

[Mara2]

Thanks for your support, everyone.  Now I just need to stick to my resolutions when he comes around looking all repentant.  I keep reminding myself, what is the best choice for me- not someone else.