She leaves tomorrow.

[Vatz]

It's getting closer to the 1st. She's leaving tomorrow. I don't know where she's gonna go.

Unfortunately, I worry for her. I never wanted things to get so bad, I tried and I wanted to make things better. Even if she was with me, I couldn't let her live with me for a while because there's so much I have to take care of for myself. After I get back on my feet, I wanted her to come stay or maybe if finances allowed, we moved somewhere else together.

I tried, I really saw us together for a long time. But it's done, and even if I could ask for reconciliation (recycle, I guess,) she wouldn't agree to the terms. The reason she even broke up with me was because I needed her to find her own place. I couldn't have her living with me, not right now. I didn't mind taking care of her at times, it's the anger and outbursts that got to me. There were awful moments, but I keep thinking of all the nice stuff. I just wanted to get on my feet by MYSELF, build my own life enough. Still see each other, still be around one another for long periods of time. But the terms weren't good enough.

It's painful, knowing that tomorrow she'll be gone. I hope she'll be safe. I never wanted any harm to come to her. I know that I'm not responsible for her... . still I don't want her to feel hurt, scared and alone. I don't know what to do.

Was I wrong? Was I the one asking for too much? My T, my folks, and anyone else says no. I still feel like I failed, and that I wish I was better to her.

[Forestaken]

You did nothing wrong.  Live your life.  You can't control anyone only yourself.

[Vatz]

Yeah, I suppose.

I can't control her. Her not agreeing to my terms is *her* decision. In the end, she broke it off with me.

Doesn't help me emotionally right now, but at least it's something I should keep in mind.

I feel bad, but my terms were fair.