Update

[purplicious]

Saturday I went to the house and got the rest of the stuff she would let me take. It was hard seeing her. She has new roommates already. A straight couple. Today I called and got the water out of my name and also had her phone turned off so she can change the number like she wants. Its been a rough 9 days. I know I will make it through this. Its a very rough road. I am trying to let go but it is so hard to do.

I have moved onto thinking about more than a minute at a time. I am working on lessons in leaving. This seems to be helping to understand the course of thing.

Hang in there everyone... I know we can make it through the pain.

[Mutt]

First I would like to give you a virtual hug    I'm so sorry you are going through this. The first step is always the hardest and detaching is difficult in the first few days. Am I understanding this correctly? She was diagnosed a month ago and projected her insecurities on you? Hang in there purplicious.

[purplicious]

Yes. I was trying to stay and when they say it gets worse they are right. Ty for the hug!

[Tausk]

Hang in there.  Take good care of yourself.  Remember HALT.  :)on't get to Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired.  Taking a good friend out to dinner can cover a lot of those.

And remember we are here.  We understand.  It's hard.  It hurts like hell.  It's totally confusing... .

It's the Disorder.

But we are here.  We understand and we will support as best as we can.  

You are not alone.

Thanks for posting.

T

[purplicious]

Hang in there.  Take good care of yourself.  Remember HALT.  :)on't get to Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired.  Taking a good friend out to dinner can cover a lot of those.

And remember we are here.  We understand.  It's hard.  It hurts like hell.  It's totally confusing... .

It's the Disorder.

But we are here.  We understand and we will support as best as we can.  

You are not alone.

Thanks for posting.

T

I hadnt heard of HALT yet. I would be better if I could keep food down. I just want to stop crying n throwing up. My nerves are shot. Now that all the lose ends are tied up, it should get better. I'm just trying not to think of her. I've come to terms that I will always be the bad guy and I'm ok with her bad mouthing me. I'm not keeping in contact with mutual friends that way I dont have to hear it. One day at a time. Hopefully this week I will get a car so things will get easier.

[I Am]

You can do this.  just take it in as small bites as you need.  When it is bad just focus on getting through the minute you are in.  Then move to the next minute.  eventually you will put together a few good hours at a time.  then a half a day will go by without  a sad thought... . 

Just know you are not alone.  You can do this and there are others just like you dealing with the same problem.

all the best!