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[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

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You and your stupid b___ friends... Make me sick. and I feel sorry for May one day she will wake up and realize that stupid b___ Dom has been abusing her this entire time I feel so sorry for may.  YOu all falsely follow the credo forgive and forget. You never forgive though you just blame and forget and there is a huge difference.  blame and forget blame and forget... .as you leave a trail of destruction in the wake.  and you look back and have the audacity to say to the people you bulldozed over get over it why cant you let go?  zero empathy... .zero self reflection ... .they very things that make us human... .you are connected to nothing but a lie... .your existence is an illusion... .a deception... .afacade... .you have no connection to the spirit none of you... .and you don't even know it you are all in so much denial... .your only purpose is to let people like me know evil does exist... .

[Blimblam]

Posting messages I want to send her here instead

You and your stupid b___ friends... Make me sick. and I feel sorry for May one day she will wake up and realize that stupid b___ Dom has been abusing her this entire time I feel so sorry for may.  YOu all falsely follow the credo forgive and forget. You never forgive though you just blame and forget and there is a huge difference.  blame and forget blame and forget... .as you leave a trail of destruction in the wake.  and you look back and have the audacity to say to the people you bulldozed over get over it why cant you let go?  zero empathy... .zero self reflection ... .they very things that make us human... .you are connected to nothing but a lie... .your existence is an illusion... .a deception... .afacade... .you have no connection to the spirit none of you... .and you don't even know it you are all in so much denial... .your only purpose is to let people like me know evil does exist... .

[Caramel]

You never forgive though you just blame and forget and there is a huge difference.  blame and forget blame and forget... .as you leave a trail of destruction in the wake.  and you look back and have the audacity to say to the people you bulldozed over get over it why cant you let go?  zero empathy. you don't even know it you are all in so much denial... .your only purpose is to let people like me know evil does exist... .

How true and painful Blimblam.   :'(

[Blimblam]

I wish I could let this go so easily but you sucked the life force our of me and left me to die... .you are stuck in a pattern... .the amount of snap chats you do is ridiculous... .you and our stupid cellphone I swear you think you would die without it...  you are so incredibly toxic and I still feel your presence like poison in my heart. I hate that I still think about you. I hate that I care about you. I hate that the thought of you fills me with rage and pain and suffering. I don't want this anymore. you think those guys are your friends?  they don't even know you... .they don't love you they are not your friends. they don't care about you deep down... .so empty  they only like you because you dangle the chance of getting laid in front of them how disgusting

[seeking balance]

challenge for you blimblam:

Go run or walk and say all these things out loud... .don't stop until you are done, exhausted.

Emotions are energy in motion - your energy needs to go somewhere and a keyboard is good, but you have a lot of it in you - let it go my friend.

[Blimblam]

challenge for you blimblam:

Go run or walk and say all these things out loud... .don't stop until you are done, exhausted.

Emotions are energy in motion - your energy needs to go somewhere and a keyboard is good, but you have a lot of it in you - let it go my friend.

I accept and will do my best

[seeking balance]

I accept and will do my best

Good!  Physical exhaustion really does help with the anger - don't worry about the people who may look at you like you are crazy talking to yourself 

[Aussie JJ]

Hahaha seeking

I have done this a few times.  I have always had a bad knee and since I started running again and getting fit the times I have been super angry I have pushed myself harder and harder and hurt myself. 

BB.  The most relaxed I have been was after doing the beep test... .  horrible torturous exercise, when younger I could get to 12 and 13 sometimes and back it up 15 minutes later.  I was fit as anything.  Now im happy to get a 9.  When I had major major anger one day I did my usual jog and then the beep test but pushed myself to a 10.4... .  5 minutes latter my agro was still on so I went fk it I'm doing this again.  Made it to 9.7... .  was still angry so again the beep test and 9.8... .  3 times I was rooted, absolutely exhausted and still had 3 kms to jog home. 

I was so bloody exhausted but the last 2 beep test runs I had been doing I realised afterwards I had been crying the whole time.  My knee swelled up and I could hardly walk home but I 'got it out'. 

I got that anger sadness and frustration out by killing myself physically like I hadn't done in years, got a full nights sleep and was at peace until the next morning when groundhog day started again.  That day was horrible as I couldn't go for a run or even walk.  Everything hurt it took me a week to recover.  That pain, that was something I could push myself to exert all my energy and silence / cope with everything else going on.  I found an outlet, that saved me that day as I was so so so low. 

Now I am not going to go doing that to my knee again, I bought a bike.  Now I ride myself into the ground to get it out and the next day my knees are fine and I ride myself into the ground again.  I get clarity from this, perspective, more balance. 

I have a weekend off in 3 weeks where I am going hiking again but a big hike not a day hike.  Something I used to do ages ago.  I'm going to the state forest near where I used to live as a kid and I'm doing a 4 day hike in hopefully 2 days, 79 km's of walking up and down hills to exhaust myself and do an activity I used to love and gave up on.  I have done a few 15km day hikes and 20 km day hikes recently but I am planning 45 km's one day and 34 the second day for this weekend away.  I will be exhausted at the end of it but that exhaustion physically will put the emotions in perspective.  If I can do that I can manage and cope with the emotions. 

Go to a big hill or a dandy beach where it is hard work and grind yourself into the ground.  Cry it out, scream it out and all that energy that hurts put it into a physical activity.  You will be surprised how much it allows you to gain back a bit of balance. 

[Aussie JJ]

I also found swimming helpful... .

Instead of breathing out underwater scream at the water and no1 can hear you.  Again, you will look craxy but it puts it all in perspective.