Identifying my own projection

[Blimblam]

I just woke up remembering a look in one of my exs exs eyes when we ran into him at a show he was try  to ignore him and she made sure to kiss me in front of him. She made it akward for everyone. One we were leaving I patted him on the boulder and told him no hard feelings and he have me this really hurt look.

I woke up feeling like I wanted to contact him and appologize and tell him " hey man if she went so far out if her way to hurt you and you got really hurt this is her twisted way if telling you how much he loved you." Then I though about having a conversation with him about we shouldn't confront her about treatment because no matter what our role is with dealing with her we fall right back into the karpman drama triangle with her. 

Then i realized I was having a conversation with another part of myself and everytime I feel like teaching out to someone to talk about my ex especially my ex and people related to her and had a bi internal struggle about contacting her or not to discuss this it was really about the different fractured parts of my own self having an internal dialogue. The different archetypes that exist within me that I identified as these other people.  My ex being my anima and her ex between my ego and wounded child.

Now I am trying to embrace these urges in a healthy way with awareness.