Finally... Fell out of love

[Trog]

Im calling it 'falling out of love' but I'm not sure I can identify the feeling other than i no longer think of her when I wake or go to bed and when I do think of her the feelings of sickness to my stomach are gone. I feel 'meh' and ive been waiting to feel this way for 9 long months. The last 2 have been NC and I want everyone to benefit who has been turning themselves and ther minds inside out praying that their ex was ok(inbetween hating them) that the best way truly truly is NC.

I was married, we had a miscarriage, there was a lot of painful water under the bridge, Ive never felt worse about myself or my life than during my time and separation from my wife. The crazy making, accusations of stuff i had not done, coded messages and out and out cruelty... .It's plain unacceptable and something has just snapped inside me. I look inside myself and I do not love her. I do not want the relationship and I am excited for the future. It's down to NC.

Who knows I won't swing higher and lower again but there's a low I won't reach again, I won't let myself be manipulated or grovel for someone who is simply undeserving of my attention. I don't wish her Ill I just wish her no where near me.


Good luck