100 days away with a couple of contacts and

[mitatsu]

i feel pretty good and know my direction in life and what i want my confidence in myself and my thought are back

the few times of contact showed just how 'me/victim' she is and twice now i've told her there is no way back for us (4yr rel with a 5 month marriage) she kept sending late night drunk texts saying how hurt and hard for her it was to get over me and also asking for couples therapy but once politely rebuffed she soon became the raging demon who was there for 75% of our rel and she still tells so many lies to protect herself

i told her i forgive her and wish her happiness as i hope she does me... .well that got no response

yep the early days were tough and tears anger etc have cycled through me but i'm in a pretty good place i work out like i used too i live with a smashing couple (old friends of both of us who she turned on and blackened too)

so to all the newer and some older users of this part of the forum stay strong i cannot tell you when but it does come to us all

its not about us we played our parts in the rel but in 99% of cases it wasnt going to happen any other way and it gives us such a chance to learn about and re-connect with the real us

peace to you all study the 'illness' it helps read as much as you can on all 3 boards see the patterns and heal my friends