Hi Takingandsending
Yes, it makes very good sense.
I am all over the place in the situation. I guess that is the drama triangle. Mainly I have been trying a hundred different things to appease my boyfriend and not having success. I'm worn out on it.
6 weeks of silent treatment, he starts showing up every day and I think it's safe to say would you stop the blocking. Nope, he says. Not ready, he is still scared. Then he makes fun of my hurt and disappointment, he can take me or leave me , etc etc.
It's like what hoop now? how high? does it help if I agree I am crap? wait, I am not crap... I don't cheat! mad, sad, panic, sad, mad...
I think you were better able to express what I meant in a list. I felt just so despondent trying to make one.
My boyfriend is really awesome when he is not doing these things. All I see is a polite retreat right now in order to calm myself and as you say to detach.
I feel afraid. If I don't keep reaching out past his silent treatment, he will be gone. That is my fear.
Then he feels powerful and jerks me around.
You are right, it's not a stable place to be. I will think more on a list.