My Dream again. It will make you smile too

[In Pain]

My Dream again. It will make you smile too !

My story:

18 month relationship with UDBPDF  I've seen it all, experienced the painful breakup and my very very hard road to recovery. Enough said, if you're on this site, you get it.

The dream:

She contacts me, acting all nice. We decide to meet for a drink and to talk. I express to her my feelings for her, my deep love and compassion for her. I tell her I really do understand her and the challenges she faces every day. ( all the while she sits there quietly listening ) I continue to tell her how much I care for her and would never do anything to hurt her. Although I can't give her what she wants, a big house, a Mercedes and trips around the world... .I can give her what she really needs, real love, compassion from my heart and understanding.

This is about as far as the dream goes... .This is when I come back to reality and remember this will NEVER happen.

She has a severe personality disorder that will stop me on the first sentence. She can't handle this honesty, participate in it or even let it continue without her accusing me of something or causing a fight.

The dream ends again... .till tomorrow.

LOL

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It's been 18 months since we broke up. I've had a long painful recovery that has brought me back to happiness and to who I was. I've learned a lot about her, about myself, about women and people... .all good in the long run. I've done my time in hell.

Do I still think about her ?

Every day, and that may never go away. She's got a piece of me. But it doesn't mean I can't meet and love someone new.

Recovery takes time and hard work, understanding, and time, learning, and more time, and eventually you will emerge a more enlightened person.

It's because of all I've learned that I can write the above dream, smile, and see it clearly for what it is... .a dream.

I didn't cause it

I can't control it

I can't cure it

This website and the people here have helped me immensely to get through maybe the toughest episode in my life. To that I say "Thank You".

Good luck to everyone

[hopealways]

Very well said. Just one thing: even if you got her the Mercedes, she would want a Bentley after. Nothing is good enough for the BPD. Hang in there.