No BPD title

[FallBack!Monster]

I spent last night looking at different possibilities by reading from different places online. I wrote something today that prompt me to thinking these things.

How was everything in you exs life? Was anything neat/ orderly or was everything messy?
His living space? Messy
Finances? Messy
Past r/s? Were, and ended messy

Was I ever oblivious or blinded by the charm, or a willing "supportive" actor in this play?
What were my/your expectations? Did I/did you really expect a 'neat" outcome?
Definitions:
Oblivious: not aware of or "not concerned" about what is happening around one.
Blind: visually impaired. (Nothing wrong with both my eyes)
Convince/conveniently: "seeing thing in a way that fits well with particular needs, activities, and plans". I know my answers or I wouldn't write this. Is there anyone here asking themself the same things?