I'm out

[Jk416]

I made it out! I've been considering leaving for a while. I didn't think I could do it. I was waiting for the "right time" which doesn't exist. But last week he have me an out and I took it. He told me he wanted to be free. Which meant he wants to maintain a relationship with me with all the perks but have sex with other women whenever and wherever he wants including our home. After 3 days of silent treatment, I packed all my things and left before he got home today. We have talked today but I refused to come home. I thought getting out would be the hardest part. I now know leaving will likely be the easiest part of this journey, I feel sick and extremely guilty. I'm missing him. I hurt for him, for myself and for our relationship.

[infjEpic]

I thought getting out would be the hardest part. I now know leaving will likely be the easiest part of this journey,

I feel sick and extremely guilty. I'm missing him. I hurt for him, for myself and for our relationship.

Staying would have been infinitely worse, than anything you will experience in the recovery process.
Do not forget that.

Please - Stay in full NC. No matter how bad you feel over the coming days.

Do you have a support system?
Have you spoken to a therapist/counsellor?