Hi mrstring,
When you say that she's trying to tear you down, is she being critical, what I mean is it
negative self talk? Are you struggling with loving yourself?
Yes I am struggling to love myself. I feel like an empty shell lately. I know I am a decent and kind person. I know I am very good with my friends and family and dogs. Yes she is being very critical.
So far.
1. Constant accusations of cheating, bordering on abusive and delusional, saying that she has proof from Private Investigators. I know for a fact I have never cheated or even been in a compromising position with another woman, or inappropriate texts or calls, so I know she is either lying or some PI is lying to her.
2. Accuses me of poisoning her or drugging her, which she says I will spend 25 years in jail because of it. Also, obviously bull crap.
3. Constantly saying I never did enough or cared enough or found her desirable or invested enough in the relationship. I suppose that is subjective, but I know how much I loved and still loved her
4. Saying she called the cops on me because she felt threatened, even though I was cooperating in going to pack my bags that night. Even the police report, which I had to jump through hoops to get, called me the victim even though she called the cops.
5. Whenever she rarely hit me or destroyed my things, she said I deserved it because I didn't care enough
Yet, I miss her, go figure.
