Hi all!
I have been, I think, a little over 2 years NC with my pwBPD ex. I am completely over her except the for the grieving anger stage. Every time I think of her, she makes me incredibly angry. I feel like getting revenge or seeing her suffer in some way but I don't do anything because there's no point and I don't want her in my life in any way, shape or form. I do, however, want her to try call me up so I can tell her to F off. We were together, in Hell, for 6 years prior to the 2 years NC. Whenever I talk about her it's about how abusive and manipulative she was and how angry I am at her. She, apparently, has tried to do some Facebook stuff to get my attention and my gf's attention, but I barely use Facebook so it doesn't bother me in the least. I feel as though those 6 years were a literal void in my life, but the last 2 have been absolutely amazing and during those 2 there has been vast character building. I have become really picky who I spend my time with and it's so worth it.
Today, I was curious what she was up to so I checked her Steam account to see anything but there was nothing, and I didn't bother with Facebook or anything else. So, I decided to say something here and say farewell. My curiosity is decreasing and so is my anger. I thought, fairly recently, maybe she did love me in her own way, but she couldn't control who she was. Equally, I would never go back to her or stand to be in the same room as her; she crossed my limit too many times. She is unhealthy to be around and I feel sorry for anyone who has that task now. Perhaps, forgiveness will sometime come, but not today
If anyone wants to comment on what I have said or ask anything, please let me know. I would like to consider my story a successful detachment from pwBPD ex.
I hope everyone here can build the strength to stand up for themselves. Believe me, I know how difficult it was. I know you are worth it!
Love
Elfyguy
