He made it one day before an "accidental" call ?

[princess_peach]

So two days ago was my last real contact out of the anger I was feeling from so much pain he caused me.  Sunday he needed me but of course I screwed up thanks to his lack of communication which was my fault and he hated me, made sure I knew how much he hated me too. I cried and Wednesday night went off on him. Of course he didnt care and it was goodbye, you're a stalker and obsessed with me and crazy.

We did have 4 very polite texts yesterday where I apologized over going off and he thanked me  other than that for the first time in 3 years I have not bothered him at all.

This morning he called me on my cell while he knows I'm at work. I said hello twice and he hung up so I know it wasnt a butt dial. Normally i would text and ask what he wanted, and while its bugging me wondering what he was thinking I am remaining silent to sort it out in my head.

Do I really want to live my life being sucked back in only to get hurt because he cant maintain a normal relationship? Is it even possible to ever just be friends?  I glad that while I still love him and am torn, I am able to begin to take a step back and really think.

[formflier]

  I glad that while I still love him and am torn, I am able to begin to take a step back and really think.

This is a very important process.  One that is more easily done with "space" in the relationship. 

Have you looked through "choosing your path" on the right side of your screen?  I think you will find it a helpful resource.

https://bpdfamily.com/deciding_guide/00.htm

FF

[princess_peach]

Thank you.

My strength went out the window. I texted him to tell him I left his mail on his dresser (I am in the process of moving but still have things there) and he said thanks. I asked him when he is going to bring my things that he has promised for 2 weeks and he ignored me  I accused him of having no intentions of bringing them and again silence until I was so upset I called and he let his 6 year old son answer (who I adore and adored me   ) then took the phone and hung up and texted me to just stop.

Why do I keep torturing myself?  I just want my stuff so I can block him and move on which I thought we BOTH wanted (ha!)  

He is pursuing girls that have no interest in him, and I turn heads wherever I go, am WAY too good for him and I'm so hung up on him it's all I think about on the weekends. Ugh. During the week I let work distract me. I hate this!