How is my son in other relationships? That is hard to say because this is, believe it or not, the first girl he ever brought home to meet us. So I believe he may have had other relationships in the past but maybe they didn't last very long? Not sure. This is the only serious one we know of. Regarding how he is with other people and relationships, always well-liked, gets along great with his coworkers, had nice friends in high school and overall everyone seemed to like him. He was on the quiet side in high school, but from what we have observed, everyone likes him and says he is easy to get along with.
Hi Angie59:Someone who is quiet and easy to get along with is often a "People Pleaser". Add in a parent with a temper (and anger management issues), and a "people pleaser" is easily nurtured. Quiet people are generally passive and don't want conflict.
I've often read on the relationship boards about the person with BPD or strong BPD traits who is very attractive. Early on, there can be intense sexual chemistry. Some people let the good looks and chemistry be the reason for staying in the relationship (at least until they can't take it any longer). The chemistry can be like a drug.
Perhaps the person with BPD would rate a "9" or "10" in the looks department (out of a scale from 1-10), and perhaps the non in the relationship is several points lower on the attractiveness scale. The non may have never dreamed of snagging someone who was so good looking on the outside. Early on, they will hang on as long as they can, and close their eyes to the ugly personality traits, poor values and bad behaviors. The looks and the chemistry keep them hooked, and they want to keep that at all costs.
Just sharing a possible perspective on what your son might see in his fiance. Just wondering if you ever read the information offered on "People Pleasers" within your thread at the link below:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=324580.20You left that thread and started a new one. Perhaps it could be of some value to revisit some things discussed on the 3rd page of that thread. (opportunities?)
I've read many of your posts about babysitting and feeling unappreciated and taken advantage of. Could you be stuck with ruminating over these things?
You have power over and can choose the following:
1. Accept that you are giving your grandson a gift, by babysitting for him. He is too young to realize it, but you are doing something good for his welfare. You could choose for this to be enough justification for babysitting (without feeling taken advantage of). You can exercise whatever boundaries are possible, or you can choose to quit. If you can't get beyond the feeling of being taken advantage of, you may need to just quit and accept that you won't likely be baby sitting again.
2. You can talk to your son and express your desire for periodic "Thank You's" from him. Have you had this conversation with your son? Were "Thank You's" a common practice within your household, while your son was growing up?
3. Take measures within your control to make babysitting more comfortable. i.e. you won't get them to buy the chair you want, but you can provide portable additions to make a chair more comfortable/suitable for your husband. (therapeutic pads for back support, lift pad, etc.)
What have you tried?Has your husband thought about quitting smoking? Very few people survive years of smoking, without cancer and/or lung ailments. Earlier, you mentioned the smoke residue in your home as a problem. It sounds logical that the car is an issue as well. So if you husband wasn't a smoker, am I correct in understanding that there would have been more opportunities to babysit at your house and to use your car to transport your grandson?
Although detailing a car would improve the situation with smoke residue in the car, unless your husband quits smoking in the car, it will quickly revert to the way it was before cleaning.
Smoking, or the residue from smoking is a problem for someone who has allergies, asthma or is just sensitive to smoke. I actually understand why someone would stay firm with boundaries in regard to even 3rd hand smoke exposure. If you don't have allergies and are used to being around smoke, it might be hard to understand how others have problems with being around it.
Until you radically accept the things you can't change, you will be in constant turmoil. You do have some choices, and perhaps some things you can do to make some small improvements. "All or Nothing" isn't realistic.
You previously mentioned getting involved in some activities just for you. Have you thought about some possibilities? Maybe start a hobby, join a club, take a yoga class, learn meditation, etc.? It's never healthy to hyper focus on one aspect of life. Mental vacations with activities you like can help tame anxiety.