youre probably not addicted to borderlines, per se, but there are probably aspects about these relationships, and this relationship model/dynamic that you are drawn to. you may have some ideas about relationships that can evolve, some skills and tools that will come in handy (in all of your relationships).
so im not suggesting you exit the relationship (this is the Bettering board after all), but it will help to begin to explore this, and begin to shift to a healthier model... .starting with learning the skills and tools on this board.
There have been a series of almost obsessive episodes of focusing on what I say recently and each time there has been a cycle of instant anger which is followed by statements of "maybe i'm not good for you and it's better for you to end the relationship now while this is still new for both of us."
what sorts of things that you say?
and so i responded with a remark that i thought appropriately matched that: "why- do you want to talk to him?"
She immediately got angry at my (I screen shotted her face on messenger) and I tried to maintain my emotional state and didn't want to get pulled down into her anger and react to that. After several minutes of trying to maintain my composure, i realized she was not going to snap out of it. I said, I can tell that you are upset at me for my choice of words"
she was upset with you because the remark sounded accusatory, and the nuances of playfulness can be lost in text. people tend to push back when we tell them how they feel... .she probably felt condescended to.
i know you meant well. all of this can be more easily navigated with the communication tools.
She just further went off on me and i didn't even understand why or where she was coming from. So i said i was going to exit the conversation if she didn't want to talk it out in a productive way and that we can talk later.
"im going to exit the conversation if you cant be reasonable like me" is probably what she heard here. healthy timeouts can be a great tool when things are getting too heated, but should be almost a last resort, and delivered gently, in a way that doesnt suggest we are doing it because the other person is being unreasonable... .then it just feels like punishment.
how long have the two of you been together?