last year was terrible, "no card, no gift - fu

[Cromwell]

Just thought id let you all know

I have to revise what id said earlier.

January 1st is pencilled in.

im taking a break over christmas, obviously.

last year was terrible, "no card, no gift - fu"

rancid and repugnant xmas, keep forgetting to take some prosac that ive never asked for

i sullied a day of peace, time with my family. No guilt this year, i deserve a break from the madness

[hope2727]

Take gentle care of yourself. Sometimes the little things are the big things. happy holidays.

[Al Kaseltzer]

in a strange twist my relationship wasnt long enough to have spent holidays with my ex last year but even without memories of years past, i cant believe how awful i have felt leading up the holidays.  obviously having things end less than a month ago is mostly the reason i would assume but im off of work today, for christmas eve and i have been up wide awake since 5am with intense anxiety.

[Skip]

Holiday's make this hard.

Do you have any anti-anxiety meds (e.g., zanex). I take very few drugs myself, but I have found anti-anxiety med in small doses when anxiety peaks, to be incredibly helpful and a quicker path to stabilizing feelings.

Hang in there.

[Beneck]

It's not easy Cromwell, but we're here for you 

You've been through quite a lot and you're in pain. But we're always here to talk to you.

Hang in there!

[Red5]

Hey Cromwell!

Hang in there Man... .one day at a time right !

You should see the “Charlie Brown” Christmas tree I bought TODAY form K-Mart... .after uBPDw moved out, now twent - three days ago, I’ve struggled to “take the house back”... .to include Christmas “stuff”... .

But it’s a friggen Christmas tree nontheless... .if the two stray cats don’t tear it down tonight I’ll be surprised  !

I wasn’t going to do anything... .but the boy should have a damn Christmas tree right... .

I’ve lots of “healing” to do... .got to het this old tug boat back on an even keel and underway again... .

Not going to happen overnight  ... .   one day at a time... .  steady as she goes ‘’’’’’

Hang in there Brother !

Then nice lady on the YouTube just said... .  “better to be alone for the right reasons... .than to be with someone for the wrong reasons”... .that works for me !

Keep posting Cromwell !

Red5

[Cromwell]

Thanks hope2727, AlkaSelzter, Skip, Beneck, Red5

That was horrible, whatever it was

I feel fine now, i have done a lot of philosophising in my insomnia, and the catharsis has helped over the year on this board to air my feelings, the emotional pain is blunted the more closer to a better understanding is reached.

im looking forward to us all moving on in our lives positively into the new year. so much of these encounters are far more to do with learning more about ourselves than to analyse those who have buffered into our paths on lifes journey.

I wished Santa for an Audi R8 but instead I got "BPDx detachment".

nothing ever goes right

[Beneck]

You're welcome Cromwell! Glad to see you're feeling better!

so much of these encounters are far more to do with learning more about ourselves than to analyse those who have buffered into our paths on lifes journey.

You hit the nail on the head with that one. 100%.

I miss my ex a lot, but I've learned so much about myself.

Yes, the pain might be difficult but it doesn't last forever. The lessons do.

 

[Al Kaseltzer]

im looking forward to us all moving on in our lives positively into the new year. so much of these encounters are far more to do with learning more about ourselves than to analyse those who have buffered into our paths on lifes journey.

Amen