Hi and welcome to the board.
I am sorry to hear about your health issues. I know how tough that can be and on top of it to have relationship issues as well makes everything even more painful. How are you doing today? Do you have your surgery scheduled?
Tbh, I don’t trust her anymore. But the sex is soo good that I don’t want to let go. I also opened up and told her I love her in the last few weeks because I wanted her to be there for me, to show me that she is capable of being loving and in a relationship. She said that our whole thing is overwhelming for her.
Good sex is a powerful pull for a lot of our members. If she is not ready for a love relationship, declaring your love for her may only push her away. Do you think that might have happened here?
I no longer see her as a suitable long term partner, because tbh she runs away from even being a decent human when an opportunity rises. I am so lost. And it’s affecting my mental health and recovery from surgery. As I am depressed.
Are you getting help and support as you work through your health issues? Surgery can have a big impact on us especially if recovery is long term. What other sort of support do you have?