Guess that's my answer?

[Carguy]

Hey group! So I caved a little bit last night.

The other day when I was in Walmart after not seeing my ex for a month she kept looking over at me several times. It made me wonder if she was wanting to reconnect. I ended up sending her a text last night about things in our past and although I did not apologize for seeing another girl I apologize for her feelings being hurt. I told her I wasn't trying to win her back or ask for a chance at another relationship but that I hope that someday we could start over with a friendship again. I told her I would miss her and her kid and I wish her all the best in life and that I do love her. I said a lot of positive things. To be honest I feel bad because we were friends for 15 years before all of this. I would like to at least be able to work on a friendship some day.

The last text I sent her the month ago wishing her a happy birthday came back on my end saying it was read. This time it just said delivered. I don't know if she blocked me, deleted it before even reading it, or she did read it and it just says delivered on my end because it has done that sometimes in the past. I got no response which I sort of anticipated but I guess the no response is my answer? It saddens me that things are like this but I don't know that I can do anything else to change it.

 I'm kind of struggling with it. I wish things were different.

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[juju2]

Hi CG

Am sorry you are sad.

I do not know what is going on.  For some reason you are going through this.

Do something fun for yourself.
Life gets better.  That is my experience.

My life does not hinge on a person, an event, a job, a time frame.

Write a journal of dreams, what you would like to do. 

These are only suggestions. 

Sincerely

j

[Carguy]

Thanks Juju!

Really I guess I've just been missing her quite a bit lately and feel that our last interaction was negative (her moving her stuff) and with the negativity between us that I would reach out and let her know I do care and hope we can be friends someday and wish her the best.

In my mind I just want to leave a little more positive between us in the hopes that the iciness can thaw. It's hard and by her non-response I guess I get my answer. The iciness Remains and she doesn't want anything to do with me. All as I can hope is that maybe I planted a seed that someday can develop back to a friendship or something.

We've been friends for 15 years so it saddens me that things are the way they are now.

[juju2]

Your intention is not lost.

and your hopes and dreams are viable.

All of this is about finding life, dreams, possibility.

My hope is that you stay open for all that life brings!

[Carguy]

I'm trying to stay open. I'm also hoping my intentions are not lost. That maybe the ice between us will eventually melt and we can start being friends again. Until then I just have to live.