Thank you for your kind words and input. Without a doubt and absolutely I know my mind, heart, and emotions are nowhere near ready to jump in a romantic relationship. I know she is not looking for one either as she has jumped from one to the next since she was 17. We both know we are not ready and who knoww what feelings are there or what the future may tell. We both simply agree that we understand each other on a deeper level and agree that life put us together as friends and had the instances occurr for a reason.
Apart from support on here and what limited support I can get from people in my life I'm just trying to stay busy doing things I enjoy again. I have also reached out to begin therapy for myself to deal with my own issues. The therapist I sought out are a specialized clinic for nons who have been affected by BPD. Time and a positive path will be all I neeed.
P.S. sorry for the typos. That's what I get for using my phone