Hi
I'm a little confused, so just to be sure:
What makes you uncomfortable is telling your friends that after him not being in contact for weeks and then sending you a short text, you are now back together. Is that right?
And then you would like to know more how to explain BPD to friends?
----We never actually broke up. Over the 3 years we have had many times when we didn't see or call each other for long gaps. He says it is due to his work and busy family schedule. This is true, yet I feel it is more due to the BPD push-pull.
What I feel uncomfortable about is that in a "normal" (non BP) relationship, going for so long without speaking might equal a break-up. So the friends might say to me "Can't you see that it's over? If he were interested in you he would call you". Yet that doesn't apply since he is a BP with a fear of intimacy.
Then when he does initiate a recycle with a short "how are you" text, in the context of a normal relationship, how are you wouldn't mean that much... . yet with my history with him and his BP, it is a recycle, as I have learned.
I am not looking to "educate" them about BPD as much as be able to talk to them about how the relationship is going... . yet they look at it thru the "lens" of a non-BP relationship, where 4 months of no contact might mean an actual break-up... .
So basically they minimize the positive and maximize the negative.
It's similar to someone not understanding depression, and hearing about a depressed person withdrawing from their spouse, and declaring "He doesn't love you, can't you see that is why he is withdrawing?" without realizing it is the mental illness.
So I tend to feel insecure and frustrated talking to "outsiders" about all this!
Yes I have read the lessons and have practiced validation which helps!
Claire