hardest day yet? i hope

[simplyasiam]

six months into the last of atleast 15 break ups and at the 25 day of n/c or no reply as i like to think it. to stop contact with ex i also had to lose contact with her kids ive rasied from a very young age.

today the women i met a few weeks ago brang her child to my house. today wasnt the time ive met the child but was her frist time here. was a strange feeling having a child around again. by noon the kids next door had spoted us and were here in no time. as the day began to slow down my home became full of kids and friends. the kids from next door did alot of talking about the past and all the fun we use to have as they were same ages as step kids and we were all very close.

some of the kids are in my ex steps sons room now my heart is breaking im fighting crying killing here sounds come from that room. i had to take a few min out to post here or i was going to break down in front of everyone here.

i pray the last of the hard days dealing with this are coming to a end.

[love4meNOTu]

This is wonderful. You have life in your home again, and children playing.

I was able to host a dinner for my children, parents and friends. And there was laughter in my house again. We do recover, it does get better. I've been having good days and bad days... .but I'm stringing together more and more good days.

[Reg]

Hi simplyasiam,

Look for the positive in the negative !  There may be children in the room of your former stepson, but there are again children in the house, there is again that happy sparkle of life in your house as love4menotu has remarked ! 

It's new and it will be different, but don't be afraid of it !  Do not focuss on the pas, try to it one the present 

You'll see things do get better !

Take care

Reg

[blurry]

 It could be some type of closure hitting you is all, moving on to someone new signifies the end of the old r/s in a way that simply breaking up doesn't. Just keep it all in perspective.