And the disregulation set in

[Kifazes]

I know, I was telling you all how amazing he was doing just a few days ago.

Yesterday he had a meeting at work, bosses telling every employee that they'll get less pay the upcoming months, and that the factory will close its doors by the end of this year.

As you all can guess: he didn't take that very well. Drank 4 vodka's when he got home yesterday, told him I was going to bed (leaving the lights and the tv on, shut off the light in the hallway). He followed me and got mad that I let him turn of the tv and the lights and - oh gosh, what a task! - he had to put the light back on in the hallway. From that moment I realized that he got disregulated. And more obvious, it wasn't about me.

Today got a message that some guy will come over next week to look at the house. I don't know how to say it in English. I think a real estate agent? I didn't respond to the text.

It is so weird that now I'm disconnected from him, that I can see the circle. When we were together, I probably thought that I did something wrong again, or that maybe it WAS my fault he got disregulated. Now that I'm out, I can clearly see how much this has to do with his work, and how little with me.

I'm glad he's working the evening shift today, he'll be home around 11, and I'll make sure I'm already asleep :-) Had a long day today as well on the job, and I don't want him trying to engage me in a fight, or him following me around the house.

The shoe has dropped :-)

[Chunk Palumbo]

You should look at living a happier life - one free of such trauma. I know it's tough, though.

[Kifazes]

I'm on my way there.

My previous post has explained that, we're not together anymore, but obligated to stay and live in the same house for the next two years... .

Emotionally I'm already disconnected and physically too.