Thank You BPD Fam

[Johan]

Not sure where to post this... . But this was usually the section I was on so I'll post here and mods can move it to relevant section.

I haven't been on in a long time...

I made decision after reading another post here while back, to leave BPDf... even though I came on lookign for answers, I found i had enough of them to move on alone.

I've been good more or less, now for while... until recently when seen her friends and ignored me, but I'm such a long way from where I was.

It's so difficult, and I'm still somewhat in shock sometimes when I think what went on.

I have no idea what I would have been like if I did not find this board back 2years ago... it brought my sanity back without question...

Slowly but surely...

Looking back I can't even remember most of 2013 as I was in a daze /ptsd / trying get my head back with straight thoughts. I not sure how to explain. I'm sure people here will understand...

I've been ruminating the last week somewhat but I keep remembering little bits here and there I heard on this forum... to remind me it was the messed up, and it's that keeps me grounded.  It was having no one in your own circle to understand it was the worst. It's only through bits my ex told me and letters etc is how I pieced it altogether to find here and I always think of those who don't know what the hell is going on...

I logged on to say a genuine thank you... to everyone who has helped me here, the stories n posts and through PM. Indebted to each and everyone of you. I hope to someday repay favour by passing it on in someway.

I will not be back on here again after this thread.

Hope everyone who's going through this comes out a better person... as much as anyone reading this thinks opposite that they will not... . I felt the same back then. It's the most trauamtic thing I've ever experienced. But it will get better.

Regards and enjoy life

J

[LettingGo14]

Thank you Johan.

A very positive message.

Skip said once, "good mental health is hard work" and I remind myself of that every day.   

Or, as Winston Churchill once said, "If you find yourself in h*ll, keep walking."