hello, I have joined this board to help me refrain from self-destructive contact with my ex. The urge to text or see him is so strong at times and I hope to contact you all instead of him. He has been giving me the silent treatment with only the occasional sad-face text message here and there. I've spent two months trying to go no-contact, but my record is about 8 days. I have to admit, I really don't want him back, and I've made it almost all the way thru the entire grief process over the last 6 months, but there is still some thread of connection I just can't seem to break. I have given him about 30 "last chance to communicate honestly" ultimatums
His nickname should be "StayhereStayaway"

His whole attitude for 6 months has been "Go away, but oh god, don't leave me" . . . and, "I'm a helpless victim of confused feelings and you can't make me take responsibility for my helpless actions!" ":)on't leave me, just stay away enough so I can keep the web of lies intact." "I love you, I'm in love with you, my heart is ripped out when we are apart, but don't ask why my phone ringers are always shut off or who is sending the texts and the roses and my Facebook friends are none of your damn business because none of that is real."
Hello, friends. Joining the Leaving board,

. my baggage
Oh, I settled on the username loverejected because it can read love rejected, or lover ejected. Either seems appropriate. Thanks for being here.