So my wife has been banging my roommate and I told her I wanted a divorce last week/a couple weeks ago. After that she moved into the roommate's bedroom and hasn't talked to since then, hardly even making eye contact. Tonight she comes out to the kitchen while I'm cooking and asks how I'm doing. I told her I was fine and she lingered around. I just kept busy cooking but remained pleasant.
Then she asked me if I needed help cooking. Seriously, my guts churned when she asked that because I have been cooking since we started dating. She acts like making a meal is a sentence at a work camp and I have always had to beg her to do it, even if I was super busy or ill.
Keep in mind this also happened conveniently while my roommate was at work. I told her what I was making for dinner and was heading to an AA meeting before her and the roommate got home. She looked disappointed but kept trying to talk to me. She finally went in her room, but not before making eye contact with, smiling sweetly, and then making a really pathetic frown before closing the door.
I'm so glad I understand all her maneuvers now. It makes a little easier, but it still sucks. I wish she could be the person she is when she wants something from me all the time; considerate, understanding, easy to talk to, and light hearted. But, then again... .that isn't really her so what's the point in wishing?
I love her and I'm going to miss her like hell, but damn I'm glad I'm finally making moves to get myself out of this mess.
To top it all off, I can't get this damn song out of my head which keeps making me more emotional than I'd like to be right now: ("Cardiac Arrest" by Bad Suns)
www.youtu.be/80Ak0e_aqUk
