Hi everyone
My ex used to kick, scratch and hit me whilst I was asleep, I do believe he actually tried to smother me once too.
It was common to be kept awake most of the night, (I was rising at 4.30 am for work) and then be shocked awake again, to the sound of his horrible verbal abuse, raging either to himself about me and my family, or raging at me directly.
I do think that I eventually never slept that well when we were in bed together, because I was afraid on some level that he might kill me in my sleep at some point. Since he had premeditated my murder during the day once, (and I caught him in that when I found a huge wrench under the front seat of my car), the thought did cross my mind a lot.
The same day I found the wrench under the seat of my car, (which wasn't there in the morning), BP had earlier thrown 3 large rocks at my head during his rage attack later that day. He had pretended to be well adjusted when he learned I was taking a walk around a local lake, and so I took him along with me. Immediately that he got in my car and we drove off, his attitude reverted back to crap again, and when we exited the car to take the walk, he immediately began his verbal attack.
For a while I managed to avoid conflict, by walking in the other direction or refusing to engage his attacks. But eventually I yelled back because he wouldn't leave me alone, and I couldn't escape from him, plus I was getting afraid.
After he was told that either he was walking home or I was, (only about 15 minute walk from where we were), he raged more and threw the rocks at my head, narrowly missing me by millimetres.
When I got into my car to drive home later, I noticed something big sliding around on the floor, and on arrival at home, grabbed whatever it was from under my passenger seat, (where BP had been seated earlier). I discovered this huge wrench, and felt terrified. On asking BP why it was there, at first he denied knowledge of it, blaming my 20yr old daughter, (she was at work all day), and when that didn't work, he tried my son who was at high school at the time and had been dropped off in the morning, when that wrench was not in the car. Several days later, BP admitted that he 'may' have put it in my car 'for protection' for us from criminals.
Pfft.
I often used to ponder that even though there were some dodgy individuals to look out for, I had reason to be just as cautious of BP as I did of them!
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