My bp-ex-husband and I have been talking again. He is in an intensive in-patient therapy ward. After six months apart, we have learned to live without each other, but we still love each other. He is wondering if he is insane for even considering getting back together with me after all that has happened and all of the healing we have done. He says that talking to me again makes him feel both breathless and like he wants to destroy everything. I on the other hand, believe in the power of God to create miracles, and nothing in our current dynamic surprises me--because God answers all of my prayers. I have no expectations and believe that God has a perfect pan for me, either with my ex or not. I am not trying to control anything. I think we should just take baby steps and see what happens. My ex feels more apt to make a decision now, but how is this even possible when we haven't been around each other?
IMHO
If intense healing is happening for both parties when they are separated?
Then healing of self and relationship with God should come first, and the "relationship" should not come into play.
Addicts who finally break free from the clutches of heroin will tell you that it was horrifying breaking the habit; painful physically, mentally and emotionally. But once they were free... .life began to happen. Healing happened. Happiness and Joy returned.
But the temptation is always there.
And if they give in, just one time; they are right back on the road to destruction.
I definitely believe God has a plan.
I absolutely believe that if I for one second think I can manipulate/control Him in to rearranging those plans to accomodate what I have planned, bad things happen. Ever, single, time.
Ask me how I know.
