Trying to leave BPDgf, but it's just SO hard

[cnorgaard]

I'd really love to "talk" to someone who has been here. I've been struggling to desengage for 4 months and broke it off this monday Night, but it hurts SO BADLY, and my body is acking and screeming for me to see her. I haven't went NC, because I still believe, that we Can seperate in a proper manor... .Have do I let go of her?  :'(

[joeramabeme]

cnorgaard, it feels like quitting a powerful drug, doesn't it?  We know it is not good for us and yet we can't put it down.

If you broke it off on Monday night it is unlikely that you will get closure so quickly, especially when you are in a difficult emotional place.

There was another post on here today of someone getting closure 2 months after their r/s ended.  Give it some time and keep posting as you sort out your thoughts and feelings.

[disorderedsociety]

I know how you feel. Even after her behavior threw all my attraction to her out, I stayed for nearly another year needlessly because of such heavy ambivalence. All I can say is, the sooner the better and don't make the mistake I did by contacting her afterward.

[Loosestrife]

 hi

I'm sorry you are hurting so much. I'm going through something similar so I can't really advise but I posted yesterday under 'NC day 4' and got some help comments from others'. Well done for making the break. Are you seeing a T?