Maybe there's more guilt than I know

[Scopikaz]

You know. I still don't know totally if she has BPD. Just based on much of what i read she likely does. 

But I have to wonder, she left me three months ago, I've held out hope she may have a change of heart. But I've given up hope of that. 

Last night (after spending Friday night with me) she wound up at a cheap bar where she lives in next town over.  I think it's her second time out with him. Anyhow, he tagged her on fb.

But I have to wonder if at her core she's really happy with her state in life. She says she hates men. Her two ex husbands. Of course the pain I caused her which I don't minimize. Just don't fully agree with.  The loss of her children. The lack of possessions. Little Money. Can't afford her own place so has to live with girl ten years younger to survive.  The hanging out at Bars with players and losers. 

I have to wonder how she truly feels about herself. Her life.

[zeus123]

sounds like you are thinking too much about her, and you have not begun to connect with you.

[Scopikaz]

Who asked you?  Lol