The FOG is a good explanation of what keeps you attached, and changing your email definitely sounds like a hassle. So drill down: what keeeps you engaged here? Not what is it about her (and here I sympathize, I would find it hard not to answer too), but what is it that you feel drives you deep down to answer?
That's a difficult question to answer... .Probably love. I love her, I know I can't be with her though, but I wish I could. She's just too damaged and too low-functioning to have a mature, give-and-take romantic relationship with.
So remember in my original post when I said, "Sounds like a disaster waiting to happen, and I don't want to be around when things go south." Well, they went south already. She contacted me again last night. I had her number blocked, but I got a phone call around 11 PM and I just had a funny feeling it was her, so I unblocked her number. Maybe 30 minutes later I get a text from her saying that the cops were on their way. Turns out, she called the cops on her roommate because she was afraid for her safety and wanted him out (they just moved in together too). Apparently this guy is quite the headcase according to my ex; physically abused his ex, been to anger management classes, does cocaine and other drugs, sells drugs, almost killed someone before, ect. She played to me some of her recordings of him yelling at her that night in the moving truck. There was one thing he mentioned in the recording that really struck a cord with me because I could relate to it so well. He said something along the lines of, "You never say thank you for anything! Never show any appreciation for what I've done for you!" When I heard that, I couldn't help but smirk because I've said the same thing to my ex plenty of times (although, I didn't yell it). Hell, even when she was staying with me and my family my mom thought it was weird how she never said thanks for anything. She noticed that all on her own too.
So what happens next with them living together is still up in the air. Either he moves out, leaving my ex to pay $12000 in rent monthly, or they try and get along better (don't see that happening).
This is my ex from 3 years ago! And I'm still involved in her drama. Yeah, I try and be good friend to her because she doesn't really have any, but holy hell... .I'm getting tired of all this. Really, really tired.