Reading these posts, it just amazes me how similar they all are to my story. I'm a 34 year old guy and have never had a recycling situation. When a past relationship didn't work, we just talked and went our ways. That was it. Maybe a text or call much later just to say "Hope you are doing well" , but usually just going our ways.
Then 2 years ago I meet my diagnosed BPD girlfriend. We were together 1.5 years. I can't count how many times she would do something that would normally be deal breaking - stealing my prescriptions and lying about it, cheating on me, catching her hanging out texting with her ex's, going recluse, you name it.
-The Stress is getting to me-
I think during our 1.5 years together, we might have actually been together on good terms for about half that.
I would say " I'm done " . She would not leave me alone. 60 + text my way without a reply back. Block her number and she would find a new way to message me. Eventually she would say something that would make me reach out and here we go again. We would get back and I would find another way to think it just might work, and of course the honeymoon would restart and then end with her doing something even more mind blowing than before.
-I am so tired of this-
I would later find out just days after we would take one of these breaks, she would sleep with another guy while I couldn't even fathom about going on a date. The lying was all over the place. She would even lie about stuff that didn't really matter. I tried to get her to keep going to dbt therapy, but she would lie about going.
-I did not want to live like this-
On a side note : If you ever do any online dating guys - be very leary of women who message you first.
It's been over a month since I've seen her. I had to block all methods of her contacting me. I'm just now getting out of the FOG and taking back my life. No more will I be tortured with crazy texting and trying to be sucked in.
-This is turning me into something I'm not. I'm so distracted and on edge -
I still get random emails in my spam box from her. Here is one example:
"From: Marie xxx <
rxxxmariee@gmail.com>
Date: Sun, Jan 1, 2017 at 11:22 AM
Subject: Re: hi
To: Roger xxxx <
rogerxxxx@gmail.com>
One day everyone will see how truly crazy and deceptive you are. I feel sorry for you and anyone who knows you.
"
She has virtually no friends and I'm surrounded by tons of people who care about me. Nobody else would say these things about me.
I don't care how sexy you are. I don't care how awesome you are in the bedroom. I don't care about the dream anymore. I'm tired of wondering what you might be lying about today. I'm done.
I am taking my life back. You will become my past, a historical record, a distant memory.
