Hi Sabar
Welcome!
I've used that book as well. It was the first one I read to cope with my relationship. If you relate to that book closely, you'll find your story will resemble many peoples' stories here. You'll find support from us.
It's important you address what you want your kids to know and what you might want to consider telling them. Here are some ideas about what you can share with your children regarding your co-parent:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=203238.msg12267633#msg12267633It seems you have some understanding on how to communicate with the pwBPD, so perhaps looking at giving yourself space to think may help you care for yourself:
https://bpdfamily.com/deciding_guide/02.htmI look forward to your sharing more of your story.
