Hi smitty88 and welcome! I absolutely second what the wise NaughtyNibbler posted (and thanks for that excellent link btw Nibs that I hadn't come across yet!). I'm somewhere in the middle of this stages (once again!) with my BPD little sis... .Wanting her to be normal, loving, kind, a real sister, ya know! When all the while my awareness is growing that it will never be (short of a divine miracle), and trying to stay out of the FOG (
https://bpdfamily.com/content/emotional-blackmail-fear-obligation-and-guilt-fog).
Here's a few notes I've written to myself on my phone, to review when I start to get bogged down in the "what-ifs". Maybe they can help you too. (None of this is original, it is all copied from other people so hopefully none of it is copywrited! LOL)... .
Say this, "I want to have a respectful conversation with you, but I can tell you are upset. I'm going to end this conversation for now. I look forward to communicating again, when you are feeling better."
Then just walk away, hang up the phone, block her if you need to. You have every right to walk away from someone who is treating you like garbage.
You are the problem here because your expectations are off track. You can see clear evidence that she is treating you and other people poorly, the logical move is to back away and protect your family. It’s false hope that keeps us inappropriately connected. You want what you can’t have – a sister you can trust who is your bff. When you can accept the face value of your painful situation (dysfunctional relationship) instead of the fantasy, it gets easier to live with.
_____ is sick. You know she’s sick. Everyone knows she’s sick. Everyone knows she’s mentally ill and needs help. Except her. To her it’s the world that’s wrong.
People with BPD tend to exaggerate emotional issues and can be very angry and resentful. They also do not acknowledge the extent to which their emotions sway their perceptions. In general they do not know how emotionally intense they are unless they are aware of their condition. This often leaves the people around them to sort out what they're saying and why they are feeling the way they are. This is particularly true if the person with the disorder refuses to admit that they have a problem and still blames other people and their environment for their emotional situation.
You are still responding to your sister as though she were behaving predictably and reasonably -- you are hurt by her criticisms, and trying to make sense of them. You're not seeing the situation very clearly yet if you are still expecting her to make sense and be rational. You need to understand that, for now at least, your sister as you know her is gone.
Your sister is mentally ill and you should not let her tirades make you feel like a crappy person. Her tirades are pretty typical and are not based on any kind of reality the two of you actually share. You should not accept responsiblity for them or for her accusations. If you let her illness knock you down like this every time, you're going to burn out here in very short order.
She can't be "cured" and she will never get any better. The key to this relationship is to stay away from her. Do not engage in conversation. Do not try to reason with her. Do not go anywhere near her unless it's at a family function you absolutely, positively can't get out of attending.
She cannot give and receive love in any way that normal people understand it. Trying to have a caring relationship with an NPD/BPD person is like being hit repeatedly with a hard, blunt object (often soaked in drugs and/or alcohol). It only feels better when you stop.