What should I expect.

[Depression = 72% of members]

Hey, So there is a lot of history with me and my BPD.


I went from

Relationship> Split black/monster/breakup> Split/white/ (apologized to me)>  Friend


I'm currently or was friends with my ex.  
However, very recently she was getting somewhat clingy and it triggered me to the point of confusion.
I told her I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue, as I wasn't sure what I meant to her.

She was very sincere to me and told me I was her "best friend" and that she would give me space and etc.
At the end of the convo I ended it up in a bit of a grumpy note. I was upset that she was calling me her best friend when she tossed me away so easily (I told her this as well).

Anyways, I took the time to try to think.  Since I wanted time to myself I also decided to block her for a bit. I was naive and didn't know it deleted when you blocked.

Few days l just spent time to myself and tried to clear my head as I was genuinely confused.
When I came back, I noticed she deleted/blocked me on everything.

I'm not sure if she did that because she was deleted (I didn't mean to, was only blocking her temporarily), or what.

Regardless I wrote an apology. All I needed was to clear my head.


Should I assume I'm painted black again, and won't hear back from her from a long time?

                        

[ShadowA]

Hey, So there is a lot of history with me and my BPD.


I went from

Relationship> Split black/monster/breakup> Split/white/ (apologized to me)>  Friend


I'm currently or was friends with my ex.  
However, very recently she was getting somewhat clingy and it triggered me to the point of confusion.
I told her I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue, as I wasn't sure what I meant to her.

She was very sincere to me and told me I was her "best friend" and that she would give me space and etc.
At the end of the convo I ended it up in a bit of a grumpy note. I was upset that she was calling me her best friend when she tossed me away so easily (I told her this as well).

Anyways, I took the time to try to think.  Since I wanted time to myself I also decided to block her for a bit. I was naive and didn't know it deleted when you blocked.

Few days l just spent time to myself and tried to clear my head as I was genuinely confused.
When I came back, I noticed she deleted/blocked me on everything.

I'm not sure if she did that because she was deleted (I didn't mean to, was only blocking her temporarily), or what.

Regardless I wrote an apology. All I needed was to clear my head.


Should I assume I'm painted black again, and won't hear back from her from a long time?

                        

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[ShadowA]

Nevermind I think I need to reexamine my priorities

[Tattered Heart]

I'm sorry you are feeling confused in your relationship. It sounds like she thinks you were rejecting her, although it was an accident. That could be difficult to try to explain, but once you are able to get into contact with her, sharing with her in an authentic and honest way might help. Don't try to justify what happened. Let he know what was going on with you. IT could look somethign like this:

Hey, I just realized that it looked like I deleted you on FB. I know it can be hurtful to feel like you were being blocked. YOu are important to me. I needed some time to get my head clear because I was feeling confused about our relationship and needed a little space.