Recovering from relationship with BPD

[BetRox]

I call it my hit and run accident, or my 60 days in hell. One minute I was the love of her life, her forever, two weeks into living together, everything changed. Sex stopped, everything I did was wrong, long, awkward periods of silence, fist-shaking outbursts of anger over the simplest things. And then one day, when finances were tight, she packed up her things and left. 2 weeks later, I attempted suicide, not because she left, I knew that was best but because of the damage she caused my self-worth and self-esteem. I am much better now but I often think what I could’ve done differently to ‘fix’ her. I know that’s not possible because she doesn’t realize she has a problem. I remain friendly with her for my own peace of mind, but now realize it’s sometimes better to just let go. When she was good, she was a beautiful, kind, loving, person. I miss that part of her.

[pearlsw]

Hi BetRox,

Sorry to hear about all the pain you've been in. May I ask how recently your suicide attempt was? How is your recovery going with this? Can you share more about your issues with self-worth or self-esteem? I don't want to put any pressure on you, just open up the opportunity for you to get a bit more support from members here if you would like it.

wishing you peace in your heart, pearlsw.