I am bpd

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  i am bpd been told by doc i dont have narc traits but due to the pandemic my medication cannot be gotten from pharms supplier. I am losing control. My fiance and i have been together for twelve years off an on he was a serial cheater and i am having a hard time letting go the past to the point where i think about it and rage out on him by picking about the house or him helping with daily chores... He says imma bitch and i am not trying to be but i feel broken and losing control of my emotiona

[Sapphire22]

  i am bpd been told by doc i dont have narc traits but due to the pandemic my medication cannot be gotten from pharms supplier. I am losing control. My fiance and i have been together for twelve years off an on he was a serial cheater and i am having a hard time letting go the past to the point where i think about it and rage out on him by picking about the house or him helping with daily chores... He says imma bitch and i am not trying to be but i feel broken and losing control of my emotiona

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[Rev]

Hi Sapphire,

How are you at this moment?

Rev

[alleyesonme]

Sapphire, I can speak from the perspective of someone who has a partner with BPD. While it's not exactly a walk in the park to deal with everything she does, what hurts the most is that she refuses to admit that anything is wrong with her, refuses to work on anything and refuses to seek therapy. If I knew she was doing everything possible to change, it would make staying in the marriage much more doable for me.

With that in mind, the fact that you acknowledge this issue and are doing everything you can to change is a huge step in the right direction. I hope your partner can understand and appreciate that, and that may lead to increased patience on his part.

[once removed]

congratulations on taking the first step to healing.  it takes a great deal of courage to seek help!

this site is for family members and relationship partners of people living with BPD. this is where we learn to support our loved ones, and where we learn to take care of ourselves. because of this, we do not have the resources to help individuals with BPD, but i encourage you to check out these resources: https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.html. you will find links to more appropriate forums, where you will find others like yourself who were brave enough to have taken positive steps towards healing.

i wish you all the best in your healing process.