Currently hiding from all the yelling

[Struggling905]

My dad is raging narcissist with BPD characteristics. It's so awful being in the same house as him. My mom is constantly emotionally abused and she will never leave him because of cultural reasons. I am home right now because we were in a car accident and my mom needs help since she was most injured. My dad is so useless and just stresses her out and yells and screams all over the house about her own stress. I grit my teeth so hard i think they'll all break. I do my best to not engage with him.

I have so much anxiety being a grown adult in the house and listing to all this nonsense. Tonight he went on a tirade after i said i was going back to my place in a few weeks (i live in another city). He said i'm not allowed to go back and i said "well, i am" and then he went on and on about how we mean nothing to him and he's better than all of us. I locked myself in my room and he's now fighting with him mom about other things. I feel bad as I feel like I caused all the fighting by saying i'm going back.
 
I've pleaded with my mom for us to leave and stay somewhere else while she recovers but she wont.  I'm at my wits end.

[Turkish]

I feel bad as I feel like I caused all the fighting by saying i'm going back.

I'll guess that this fighting (in general) isn't new... so it isn't your fault. You're doing the right thing by caring.

Are you and your mother safe from violence? If you go back, does your mother have medical resources to heal?