How do you stop your inner critic when it goes on a rampage?

[Woolspinner2000]

Hi Riv3rW0lf,

I listened to a YouTube lecture by the author of The Body Keeps the Score. That was helpful and enlightening since I don't yet have the book. You'll notice I didn't type the author's name. I can't pronounce it let alone attempt to spell it! 

Have you ever tried EMDR for T? It is often helpful for PTSD survivors. My S27 has gone through about a year of EMDR, and while It was hard, he is doing much better now. I keep pointing it out to him so that he is validated when he feels as if he has so far still to go. You want to find someone who understands or specializes in trauma T and BPD. I opted to go the CBT route, but I've had a T who has been a good match for me. The road has been long and tough, but so worth the pain because now I am thriving.

 
Wools

[lm1109]

I've been looking into somatic therapy. I have never heard of Schema therapy. I just looked it up. Couscous would you be willing to share any insight into your experience with it or how it helped you? From what I read...it sounds like it could be helpful!

[Riv3rW0lf]

Somatic therapy seems very interesting. Maybe it would help me get into my body and finally remember/relive things.

Wools,
I just checked out EMDR therapy. I don't know, maybe I don't understand it well. The thing is I can't recall most of my traumatic experiences, and those I recall do not bring any distress. They are there alright, but I can't seem to access what I felt during that moment. I think I completely dissociated from them, hence them stopping abruptly. They don't generate any distress, they are just there.

I know I have some sort of trauma because at my uBPDm house, I got into a crisis toward the end, and I was clearly reliving a trauma. My body wasn't in the present anymore, I wasn't safe, I was trapped somewhere stressful, unable to climb up, and it only stopped when I got into my father's car. But no memory that I can recall can bring forth this kind of distress.

Another thing that seem to bring this distress out is rejection. But again, last time it happened, I dissociated. I remember being in a crisis moment, sweating blood and then nothing. Like I got high in a matter of seconds, but I didn't take anything. The pain just stopped and I felt like I was on a cloud. A cloud underwater would explain it better.

Does EMDR require the person to feel distress in order to heal it? I don't remember the root cause of the distress. I know it, but I don't recall it. Reading on it, it seems you need to go back to the memory and release the bad emotions related to it, but I can't feel those emotions. They must be there but I can't seem to find them if that makes any sense.

Something tells me a lot of us have this challenge?

[Riv3rW0lf]

Well, God is laughing at me right now.

The day after I wrote about being unsure if EMDR would work on me, I found the only free therapist in my town ... And he specializes in ... Trauma, parental alienation and EMDR!

I guess I will know soon enough if it works on me or not.

No coincidences !