This is an amazing thread with so much helpful wisdom. Below are some of the posts that jumped off the page for me.
could it be because you havent accepted that the relationship is over, and allowed yourself to grieve it?
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for all of us, in the healthiest of situations, every last one of our relationships will end except for the last, because they werent meant to be.
This is helpful to remember. Because of my own compassion and codependency issues, I often try to keep everyone happy and maintain a friendly relationship with ALL of my exes. Of course that's totally impossible.
Why do i still constantly think about someone I don't want back, don't want to hear from, and recognize I am generally better off without her in my life.
There are so many reasons why I'm better off without her. But when people see a photo of us, they say "she's hot - why did you break up with her?" or "you two look so happy and cute together". Just have to keep reminding myself of the reasons. It gets (slightly) easier.
The book is over once YOU decide that it's over. Because at the end of the day, you get to choose. Choose being stuck, or choose moving on. It's a choice.
So much time can be spent pining for exes. It doesn't mean I can never think about them (specifically this one) again - it just means I'm free to do more important things (like eat, or shower, or get out of bed for starters). [See next quote]
im not sure that its realistic to expect not to think of her. the Freedom stage of Detaching isnt "to no longer have thoughts or feelings about the person", but to get to the point where, such as they are, they dont interfere with your overall feelings of well being.
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if she were dead (relationship endings can be like a death), you probably wouldnt be trying to banish thoughts of her, or beating yourself up for having them, right? sure, you would want to manage them and increasingly not be consumed with grief, but nobody kicks themselves when it happens.
I want the recycle I don't want. I expect the behavior i somewhat fear, and yet, I still miss Dr. Jekyll, despite my loathing of Mr. Hyde. God's this is exhausting.
I totally want the recycle. But then I know I'll be stuck in the same situation looking for an out. When I was IN the relationship, I spent all my time looking for the exit ramp. So bizarre.
She uses you as the background upon which she manipulates her current foreground partner. Their situation is, by definition, unstable. She is just itching to use her power to destroy that partner by dumping him and bringing you back around—for another round with her.
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To put it crudely, she can never be more than an occasional side chick. By adopting a take-it-or-leave-it attitude, she can serve as occasional spice until you settle down with someone more seriously. Always wait for her to come back to you, and then bail as calmly as possible at the first sign of dysregulation—knowing full well that another random recycle is waiting down the road.
This is spot-on, and seems simple. Certainly not easy in practice, but makes sense on paper.