Hi everyone.
Well here I am and it has been 1 week since I last saw my exBPDudgf and I am hardly thinking about her and not missing her much. I thought about trying to call her but almost have to work at it to get myself 'worked up.'
Lucky for me I have had some incredible work drama and a lot of work to keep me busy. And I have a band I am in that has a show this weekend... . so my plate is pretty full.
Now that I have a few minutes to reflect I wonder if I am really finally detached after 2 years of the roller coaster from hell.
Anyways I have nothing too exciting to report. I have not really been doing things for myself other than working. I am hanging out with a normal girl who has been sort of after me for 1 year and I finally had sex with her last weekend. Was a lot of fun and I look forward to some more... . no attachement, just friends.
There was no way in the world I could imagine doing anything like that a few months ago.
Well... . this could be the calm before the storm. The ex has not reached out to me and I don't expect much from her until she has her next 'need' for me.
But the withdrawals like I used to have before seem pretty mild.
No overconfidence here... . I have been too busy to really be too depressed... . but can't complain
I hope I am really getting closer to getting the albatras off my neck. Thanks for listening.
