Discarded and really just dont get it? Anyone feel like this? Part 2

[Depression = 72% of members]

Well today's a new one for me

I am upset again  :'(  I haven't cried or felt like this in ages  :'(

All because of a breadcrumb text, pathetic

Do you want him back? Why does he have the power to make you cry so bad?

What do you really want?

You're not pathetic. I use to fish for those breadcrumbs. I still look at my phone some times waiting for a text from her.

Vent and hang in there.

No way do I want him back, fed me a fantasy and ran. Could never forgive him for that.

I've just been upset that how badly I've been used and the fact he don't care, just hurts to know it was all a lie and hes probably already on his next supply.

While he sends me breadcrumbs and accuses me of seeing someone else

I just want to get back to the place I was two weeks ago. I was more positive and was dealing with it, but last 2 weeks had 4 drunken texts and 2 texts Tues. Just brought up all my feelings, of being abandoned, used, self worth etc. Then hits home again how much it hurts.

He has issues and I know I'm lucky to be out of it, just doesn't help my feelings about myself I guess. Makes me feel worthless and nothing

[Discarded26]

Well today's a new one for me

I am upset again  :'(  I haven't cried or felt like this in ages  :'(

All because of a breadcrumb text, pathetic

Do you want him back? Why does he have the power to make you cry so bad?

What do you really want?

You're not pathetic. I use to fish for those breadcrumbs. I still look at my phone some times waiting for a text from her.

Vent and hang in there.

No way do I want him back, fed me a fantasy and ran. Could never forgive him for that.

I've just been upset that how badly I've been used and the fact he don't care, just hurts to know it was all a lie and hes probably already on his next supply.

While he sends me breadcrumbs and accuses me of seeing someone else

I just want to get back to the place I was two weeks ago. I was more positive and was dealing with it, but last 2 weeks had 4 drunken texts and 2 texts Tues. Just brought up all my feelings, of being abandoned, used, self worth etc. Then hits home again how much it hurts.

He has issues and I know I'm lucky to be out of it, just doesn't help my feelings about myself I guess. Makes me feel worthless and nothing

[afterdeath]

Well today's a new one for me

I am upset again  :'(  I haven't cried out felt like this in ages  :'(

All because of a breadcrumb text, pathetic

Do you want him back? Why does he have the power to make you cry so bad?

What do you really want?

You're not pathetic. I use to fish for those breadcrumbs. I still look at my phone some times waiting for a text from her.

Vent and hang in there.

No way do I want him back, fed me a fantasy and ran. Could never forgive him for that.

I've just been upset that how badly I've been used and the fact he don't care, just hurts to know it was all a lie and hes probably already on his next supply.

While he sends me breadcrumbs and accuses me of seeing someone else

I just want to get back to the place I was two weeks ago. I was more positive and was dealing with it, but last 2 weeks had 4 drunken texts and 2 texts Tues. Just brought up all my feelings, of being abandoned, used, self worth etc. Then hits home again how much it hurts.

He has issues and I know I'm lucky to be out of it, just doesn't help my feelings about myself I guess. Makes me feel worthless and nothing

I'm sorry you are hurting :/. More importantly what are you doing to practice your self worth, you know you are worthy of whatever you desire. Look in the mirror and tell yourself how great you are.

Take out a piece of paper and start writing the positive things about yourself and every day add something great about you or something to be grateful for.

It hurts, I know it hurts, let it hurt. In time you'll start to realize that feeling like that won't help you progress in this life.

A motto I've been using lately is the best revenge towards an ex is living well.

Think of it this way, next time this poor sucker sees you, don't you want to make him regret what he did to you?

So when he sees you and you're smiling and looking beyond gorgeous his jaw will hit the floor and his stomach will flip inside out, and then he will feel the pain and remorse of what he's done.

At least... .  that's my aim towards my coping method. When she sees me, she will regret abusing me for the replacement. I will make sure of that.

I'm back to working out, I've got money in the bank, and I'm starting to return to form, I'm staying to believe in my own advice.

So let it hurt. Let it drive you to the next level of your life, I guarantee you are going to come out stronger and better than ever, and you'll realize how much better off you are and how much life they sucked out of you.

[Discarded26]

Well today's a new one for me

I am upset again  :'(  I haven't cried out felt like this in ages  :'(

All because of a breadcrumb text, pathetic

Do you want him back? Why does he have the power to make you cry so bad?

What do you really want?

You're not pathetic. I use to fish for those breadcrumbs. I still look at my phone some times waiting for a text from her.

Vent and hang in there.

No way do I want him back, fed me a fantasy and ran. Could never forgive him for that.

I've just been upset that how badly I've been used and the fact he don't care, just hurts to know it was all a lie and hes probably already on his next supply.

While he sends me breadcrumbs and accuses me of seeing someone else

I just want to get back to the place I was two weeks ago. I was more positive and was dealing with it, but last 2 weeks had 4 drunken texts and 2 texts Tues. Just brought up all my feelings, of being abandoned, used, self worth etc. Then hits home again how much it hurts.

He has issues and I know I'm lucky to be out of it, just doesn't help my feelings about myself I guess. Makes me feel worthless and nothing

I'm sorry you are hurting :/. More importantly what are you doing to practice your self worth, you know you are worthy of whatever you desire. Look in the mirror and tell yourself how great you are.

Take out a piece of paper and start writing the positive things about yourself and every day add something great about you or something to be grateful for.

It hurts, I know it hurts, let it hurt. In time you'll start to realize that feeling like that won't help you progress in this life.

A motto I've been using lately is the best revenge towards an ex is living well.

Think of it this way, next time this poor sucker sees you, don't you want to make him regret what he did to you?

So when he sees you and you're smiling and looking beyond gorgeous his jaw will hit the floor and his stomach will flip inside out, and then he will feel the pain and remorse of what he's done.

At least... .  that's my aim towards my coping method. When she sees me, she will regret abusing me for the replacement. I will make sure of that.

I'm back to working out, I've got money in the bank, and I'm starting to return to form, I'm staying to believe in my own advice.

So let it hurt. Let it drive you to the next level of your life, I guarantee you are going to come out stronger and better than ever, and you'll realize how much better off you are and how much life they sucked out of you.

I know hes sucked the life out of me, why I'm here posting. Just don't know why I've got upset all over again.

I'm feeling so down, and I don't want to be in this place.

He quite clearly couldn't care less, I know that, not kidding myself.

So just find myself in self pity yet again, over a breadcrumb texts. Which I know it was all ABOUT HIM. Was nothing to do with what he's done to me, just sent them to make his pathetic self feel better and accuse me of things, so he don't have to feel 'bad' with what he's done to me.

I really do wish I never gave him a 2nd chance, was all a lie

[afterdeath]

Well today's a new one for me

I am upset again  :'(  I haven't cried out felt like this in ages  :'(

All because of a breadcrumb text, pathetic

Do you want him back? Why does he have the power to make you cry so bad?

What do you really want?

You're not pathetic. I use to fish for those breadcrumbs. I still look at my phone some times waiting for a text from her.

Vent and hang in there.

No way do I want him back, fed me a fantasy and ran. Could never forgive him for that.

I've just been upset that how badly I've been used and the fact he don't care, just hurts to know it was all a lie and hes probably already on his next supply.

While he sends me breadcrumbs and accuses me of seeing someone else

I just want to get back to the place I was two weeks ago. I was more positive and was dealing with it, but last 2 weeks had 4 drunken texts and 2 texts Tues. Just brought up all my feelings, of being abandoned, used, self worth etc. Then hits home again how much it hurts.

He has issues and I know I'm lucky to be out of it, just doesn't help my feelings about myself I guess. Makes me feel worthless and nothing

I'm sorry you are hurting :/. More importantly what are you doing to practice your self worth, you know you are worthy of whatever you desire. Look in the mirror and tell yourself how great you are.

Take out a piece of paper and start writing the positive things about yourself and every day add something great about you or something to be grateful for.

It hurts, I know it hurts, let it hurt. In time you'll start to realize that feeling like that won't help you progress in this life.

A motto I've been using lately is the best revenge towards an ex is living well.

Think of it this way, next time this poor sucker sees you, don't you want to make him regret what he did to you?

So when he sees you and you're smiling and looking beyond gorgeous his jaw will hit the floor and his stomach will flip inside out, and then he will feel the pain and remorse of what he's done.

At least... .  that's my aim towards my coping method. When she sees me, she will regret abusing me for the replacement. I will make sure of that.

I'm back to working out, I've got money in the bank, and I'm starting to return to form, I'm staying to believe in my own advice.

So let it hurt. Let it drive you to the next level of your life, I guarantee you are going to come out stronger and better than ever, and you'll realize how much better off you are and how much life they sucked out of you.

I know hes sucked the life out of me, why I'm here posting. Just don't know why I've got upset all over again.

I'm feeling so down, and I don't want to be in this place.

He quite clearly couldn't care less, I know that, not kidding myself.

So just find myself in self pity yet again, over a breadcrumb texts. Which I know it was all ABOUT HIM. Was nothing to do with what he's done to me, just sent them to make his pathetic self feel better and accuse me of things, so he don't have to feel 'bad' with what he's done to me.

I really do wish I never gave him a 2nd chance, was all a lie

I hear you loud and clear, you are not alone. Shouldn't have let her recycle me.

[Discarded26]

Well today's a new one for me

I am upset again  :'(  I haven't cried out felt like this in ages  :'(

All because of a breadcrumb text, pathetic

Do you want him back? Why does he have the power to make you cry so bad?

What do you really want?

You're not pathetic. I use to fish for those breadcrumbs. I still look at my phone some times waiting for a text from her.

Vent and hang in there.

No way do I want him back, fed me a fantasy and ran. Could never forgive him for that.

I've just been upset that how badly I've been used and the fact he don't care, just hurts to know it was all a lie and hes probably already on his next supply.

While he sends me breadcrumbs and accuses me of seeing someone else

I just want to get back to the place I was two weeks ago. I was more positive and was dealing with it, but last 2 weeks had 4 drunken texts and 2 texts Tues. Just brought up all my feelings, of being abandoned, used, self worth etc. Then hits home again how much it hurts.

He has issues and I know I'm lucky to be out of it, just doesn't help my feelings about myself I guess. Makes me feel worthless and nothing

I'm sorry you are hurting :/. More importantly what are you doing to practice your self worth, you know you are worthy of whatever you desire. Look in the mirror and tell yourself how great you are.

Take out a piece of paper and start writing the positive things about yourself and every day add something great about you or something to be grateful for.

It hurts, I know it hurts, let it hurt. In time you'll start to realize that feeling like that won't help you progress in this life.

A motto I've been using lately is the best revenge towards an ex is living well.

Think of it this way, next time this poor sucker sees you, don't you want to make him regret what he did to you?

So when he sees you and you're smiling and looking beyond gorgeous his jaw will hit the floor and his stomach will flip inside out, and then he will feel the pain and remorse of what he's done.

At least... .  that's my aim towards my coping method. When she sees me, she will regret abusing me for the replacement. I will make sure of that.

I'm back to working out, I've got money in the bank, and I'm starting to return to form, I'm staying to believe in my own advice.

So let it hurt. Let it drive you to the next level of your life, I guarantee you are going to come out stronger and better than ever, and you'll realize how much better off you are and how much life they sucked out of you.

I know hes sucked the life out of me, why I'm here posting. Just don't know why I've got upset all over again.

I'm feeling so down, and I don't want to be in this place.

He quite clearly couldn't care less, I know that, not kidding myself.

So just find myself in self pity yet again, over a breadcrumb texts. Which I know it was all ABOUT HIM. Was nothing to do with what he's done to me, just sent them to make his pathetic self feel better and accuse me of things, so he don't have to feel 'bad' with what he's done to me.

I really do wish I never gave him a 2nd chance, was all a lie

I hear you loud and clear, you are not alone. Shouldn't have let her recycle me.

Sadly we live and learn. Just hope it's the end of the breadcrumbs.

Because even though I know there about him, it still gets to me. In some way, trying to 'validate' what I thought we had maybe?

It pretty selfish of him, but nothing new there

[afterdeath]

Well today's a new one for me

I am upset again  :'(  I haven't cried out felt like this in ages  :'(

All because of a breadcrumb text, pathetic

Do you want him back? Why does he have the power to make you cry so bad?

What do you really want?

You're not pathetic. I use to fish for those breadcrumbs. I still look at my phone some times waiting for a text from her.

Vent and hang in there.

No way do I want him back, fed me a fantasy and ran. Could never forgive him for that.

I've just been upset that how badly I've been used and the fact he don't care, just hurts to know it was all a lie and hes probably already on his next supply.

While he sends me breadcrumbs and accuses me of seeing someone else

I just want to get back to the place I was two weeks ago. I was more positive and was dealing with it, but last 2 weeks had 4 drunken texts and 2 texts Tues. Just brought up all my feelings, of being abandoned, used, self worth etc. Then hits home again how much it hurts.

He has issues and I know I'm lucky to be out of it, just doesn't help my feelings about myself I guess. Makes me feel worthless and nothing

I'm sorry you are hurting :/. More importantly what are you doing to practice your self worth, you know you are worthy of whatever you desire. Look in the mirror and tell yourself how great you are.

Take out a piece of paper and start writing the positive things about yourself and every day add something great about you or something to be grateful for.

It hurts, I know it hurts, let it hurt. In time you'll start to realize that feeling like that won't help you progress in this life.

A motto I've been using lately is the best revenge towards an ex is living well.

Think of it this way, next time this poor sucker sees you, don't you want to make him regret what he did to you?

So when he sees you and you're smiling and looking beyond gorgeous his jaw will hit the floor and his stomach will flip inside out, and then he will feel the pain and remorse of what he's done.

At least... .  that's my aim towards my coping method. When she sees me, she will regret abusing me for the replacement. I will make sure of that.

I'm back to working out, I've got money in the bank, and I'm starting to return to form, I'm staying to believe in my own advice.

So let it hurt. Let it drive you to the next level of your life, I guarantee you are going to come out stronger and better than ever, and you'll realize how much better off you are and how much life they sucked out of you.

I know hes sucked the life out of me, why I'm here posting. Just don't know why I've got upset all over again.

I'm feeling so down, and I don't want to be in this place.

He quite clearly couldn't care less, I know that, not kidding myself.

So just find myself in self pity yet again, over a breadcrumb texts. Which I know it was all ABOUT HIM. Was nothing to do with what he's done to me, just sent them to make his pathetic self feel better and accuse me of things, so he don't have to feel 'bad' with what he's done to me.

I really do wish I never gave him a 2nd chance, was all a lie

I hear you loud and clear, you are not alone. Shouldn't have let her recycle me.

Sadly we live and learn. Just hope it's the end of the breadcrumbs.

Because even though I know there about him, it still gets to me. In some way, trying to 'validate' what I thought we had maybe?

It pretty selfish of him, but nothing new there

I've given up trying to make sense of the illogical thinking patterns they create. Deep down just know you are right, it's all about them sadly.

I hope you're having better days lately  :-).

[Discarded26]

I've given up trying to make sense of the illogical thinking patterns they create. Deep down just know you are right, it's all about them sadly.

I hope you're having better days lately  :-).[/quote]
That is true.

I think I'll be better when I get more than 3 weeks of NC off him. Seems to be the pattern at the moment

One week down so far (again)