I came upon a term called Trauma Bonding
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So this all makes sense to me. I can't see the damage. Why? Probably because my mother was so verbally and emotionally abusive,
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Don't know if this will help anybody but wanted to share.
Hi OutsidetheHermitWalls,
It sounds like a good realization, and I'm glad you posted it. A lot of the checklist matches my experience, as does my FOO parallel yours in some ways.
I went off and read about it a bit; the "Betrayal Bond" seems similar, and I read a chapter online in a book by Patrick Carnes that seems good ("The Betrayal Bond: Breaking Free Of Exploitive Relationships".
I suspect many nons have trauma bonds from our relationships with pwBPD, and sometimes (maybe almost always?) there are these earlier FOO roots as well, that caused our
defenses to malfunction to the point where we became traumatized.
PP