I think im finally ready to let this all be over

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So yesterday i got a app on my phone to block her txt messages and one to block her phone number from calling me. They are good apps since they dont let her know she is being blocked so she can txt all she wants and wont know im not even getting them . Feeling really good and positive. After talking to some friends i realized i really dont even like her as a person i only really like her when she is mirroring me which only last like a few months at most and not worth the heart break and anger. After this last time of leaving me right after i bought a 700 dollar ring and then telling my mom im going to kill my self enough is enough im to old for this crap.

Anyone else at this point?

[JonnyJon42]

So yesterday i got a app on my phone to block her txt messages and one to block her phone number from calling me. They are good apps since they dont let her know she is being blocked so she can txt all she wants and wont know im not even getting them . Feeling really good and positive. After talking to some friends i realized i really dont even like her as a person i only really like her when she is mirroring me which only last like a few months at most and not worth the heart break and anger. After this last time of leaving me right after i bought a 700 dollar ring and then telling my mom im going to kill my self enough is enough im to old for this crap.

Anyone else at this point?

[Tormenta]

Hi!

Can you explain a little more what happened?

I wish I could be in you place but I feel sorry for my exBPDbf, for me and our relationship. I really, really like his personality, he is one of a kind, but I hate the mirroring and the rest of the phases. Under that disorder there´s such a great guy! I usually blame the BPD over and over again and I´m sure that if it wasn´t for the BPD we could be a perfect match. But the d**** BPD... .   

[trouble11]

Not a r/s question, but what apps did you get that don't show the blockee the block.  I really don't want my ex to know or feel blocked.  It's just for me.  I ask because he actually blocked me for a couple of days a few months ago and the message on my phone showed and not being received on his phone.  (little green arrows)  Yet it didn't bounce back as undeliverable.

[JonnyJon42]

Sorry it took so long to reply been working like a dog.

Well been with her off and on for 10 years last few have been a nightmare lots of lying some cheating more then i know about i think. Its hard for me to feel sorry for mine cause as time passes i started to see more and more that she is not a victim of the world as she trys to make everyone think but she is a victim of her self.

She mirrors super heavy last month she turned into a hippy cause im sure the new guy or new group of people have hippy beliefs which im sorry i cant stand . She flips the swich of loving someone then hateing them in secs at times. She is very very good at getting people ( mostly males) to think of her anyway she wants. Has lots of male friends i believe she is always having a emotional affair with at lest one since when she stops mirroring me i start to lose interest in her cause as i said before in another post i just dont really like her as a person i never really know what im going to get from one sec to the next since its all based off of who she is hanging out with at the time and who holds the most sway at the time.

Every time we get back together i try to put more rules and she follows them for a time but sooner or later gets sick of being good and does as she wants behind my back. If she would get back on meds it would be alot easier ( she was for years and things were calm) but she refuses to do so.

I learned it can never work no amount of rules or me watching her or anything i can do can change what she is and its just sad cause she will never be really happy in life since every man she gets with is ether a child in there mine set ( much like her) or just wants to love her and help and she cant handle that and cheats and lies. Its really all just sad im not mad about any of this anymore i just feel so bad for someone who lives the way alot of them do seem to live seems like WAY to much work to me.

Tormenta

You will get to this point at some point or another ( hopefully it dont take you 10 years )

The last break up i was so so so mad i said and did things im not happy about but i learned from that and its helping me keep my anger in check this time around.

Trouble11

Just go to your cell phones app store and put int text blocker there are tons im playing with a few most seem to be free apps

Well off to work again

[struggli]

Not a r/s question, but what apps did you get that don't show the blockee the block.  I really don't want my ex to know or feel blocked.  It's just for me.  I ask because he actually blocked me for a couple of days a few months ago and the message on my phone showed and not being received on his phone.  (little green arrows)  Yet it didn't bounce back as undeliverable.

If you have an android based phone it's pretty darn easy to do for free.  Send me a msg if you want.