Hi Tranquility24,
I'm so glad you are here and reaching out for support. That is very brave of you! We can help and there is hope. This site has really help me and my family in the last 15 months or so. I have gained so much knowledge and the support from caring people has been amazing. Again, welcome.
Reading your post I thought of this link:
Children of BPD Parents: Reclaiming Our Lost SelvesDo you have family members or friends to help? How can we help you? Do you seek knowledge about BPD or specific ways for you to heal?
Many of us here have a therapist? Some prefer to work more independently. There are many resources here and great people that want to help.
How can we help you?
Looking forward to hearing from you.
Being Mindful